UGH

My initiation for tomorrow has been cancelled, I having of course given up my Ben Lee ticket because I was led to believe that tomorrow was the best day for everyone to do it (even though my HPs had expressed discomfort at having it in my apartment after work, during a void-of-course moon no less.) But that is not what I am upset about. When the date of June 3 was brought up, I let everyone know that although I had purchased a concert ticket for that date, I was more than willing to give it up if that was the day everyone decided on for my initiation. They had told me a few weeks earlier to keep that date open, but knowing how difficult it is for everyone to get together on one day and successfully plan things even in advance, when my friends offered to get me a ticket I said sure. I figured I could always give it up if I couldn't go, it wasn't expensive or anything. But today my HPs tells me that another girl in my coven has expressed annoyance with me and the fact that I "didn't seem to really care" or something like that. That is complete bullshit, for starters, and for another thing, this girl has some fucking nerve accusing ME of not caring about circle! She has been putting moving, her work, her education and her new boyfriend over all the rest of us for months and I haven't said a PEEP. But I say I bought a concert ticket (one I will easily give up) on the day of an initiation which may or may not happen and she has the audacity to say *I* don't seem to care???? I am just enraged right now because I hate having people mad at me, but I hate even more that she is not confronting me with it and bitching about me behind my back and worst of all is that it's total fucking bullshit in the first place. This girl has her own issues and now she's putting them on me, and I will not accept her misplaced blame. I am ready for my initiation and am looking forward to it on whatever day it happens. Just because I'm not bitching about it constantly doesn't mean I don't care.