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Rocks in my head
Jun. 27th, 2006 09:31 amIt is only when you move when you realize just how much crap you own. How much useless junk you've accumulated and for some reason or another, can't bring yourself to throw away. But when you move, you're forced to. You go through a drawer and realize that this crap is just not worth packing up in yet another box.
And I just started! The first thing I packed was my altar, and my drawers full of "witchy" things. Most of which I don't use at all anymore. I've thrown out some of it, old incense, dried flowers, old bits of paper and whatnot. But so much of it I just can't bring myself to toss. Lots of incense, half-used candles, and stones. Okay, more like rocks. I have a ridiculous number of small rocks, and some of them are part of a rock collection I've kept since I was a kid. Most of them aren't particularly special in any way. It seems so silly to pack a box full of plain old rocks. But I feel like I have to, like I never know when I'm going to need some rocks. This is the kind of absurdist thinking that goes through my head. And I don't even really consider myself to be a packrat.
After the altar I moved on to the drawers of a dresser I've had since I was a wee tot. In college I went through a painting phase and painted all the drawers and the sides. Each drawer has a theme inspired by some pop culture obsession. I have a (Baz Luhrman's) Romeo and Juliet drawer, an X-Files drawer, a Batman-inspired drawer, a Titanic-inspired drawer, a Roswell drawer. One drawer is covered with tarot symbols. The side of the dresser is also pagan-themed. I've had this dresser for so long that half the drawers are busted in some way. There's really no room for it in my new place and I doubt it could survive another move, so it's time for it to go. It makes me sad to think of this dresser, that I put so much time and thought into decorating, out on the street. I should take pictures of it before it goes.
But so much of the stuff in these drawers is crap that I'm saving "just in case." Clothes I never wear. Bits of leftover yarn (all tangled up together, of course). Video tapes of old episodes of Growing Pains, X-Files, My So-Called Life, and movies I never watch. I guess this is the kind of stuff you're supposed to put into storage, but paying more money just to house junk you don't need seems even sillier than keeping it in your house. And I know a lot of this stuff is available on DVD, so if I really wanted it, I could buy it. But will I throw it away? Not yet. Some crap you just have to keep with you until you're finally ready to toss it.
And I just started! The first thing I packed was my altar, and my drawers full of "witchy" things. Most of which I don't use at all anymore. I've thrown out some of it, old incense, dried flowers, old bits of paper and whatnot. But so much of it I just can't bring myself to toss. Lots of incense, half-used candles, and stones. Okay, more like rocks. I have a ridiculous number of small rocks, and some of them are part of a rock collection I've kept since I was a kid. Most of them aren't particularly special in any way. It seems so silly to pack a box full of plain old rocks. But I feel like I have to, like I never know when I'm going to need some rocks. This is the kind of absurdist thinking that goes through my head. And I don't even really consider myself to be a packrat.
After the altar I moved on to the drawers of a dresser I've had since I was a wee tot. In college I went through a painting phase and painted all the drawers and the sides. Each drawer has a theme inspired by some pop culture obsession. I have a (Baz Luhrman's) Romeo and Juliet drawer, an X-Files drawer, a Batman-inspired drawer, a Titanic-inspired drawer, a Roswell drawer. One drawer is covered with tarot symbols. The side of the dresser is also pagan-themed. I've had this dresser for so long that half the drawers are busted in some way. There's really no room for it in my new place and I doubt it could survive another move, so it's time for it to go. It makes me sad to think of this dresser, that I put so much time and thought into decorating, out on the street. I should take pictures of it before it goes.
But so much of the stuff in these drawers is crap that I'm saving "just in case." Clothes I never wear. Bits of leftover yarn (all tangled up together, of course). Video tapes of old episodes of Growing Pains, X-Files, My So-Called Life, and movies I never watch. I guess this is the kind of stuff you're supposed to put into storage, but paying more money just to house junk you don't need seems even sillier than keeping it in your house. And I know a lot of this stuff is available on DVD, so if I really wanted it, I could buy it. But will I throw it away? Not yet. Some crap you just have to keep with you until you're finally ready to toss it.
